When a heart breaks no it don't break even...

Excuse me while I get all melodramatic up in here.  Maybe even a bit emo...

"They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't break even even... no"
~ Breakeven by The Script

As the day's go by some things get better but at the same time some things are getting worse. 

I walk around with a heavy heart...sad all the time.  Some days it's easy to hide; while other days, like today,  it's not.

I want you to be happy but it's hard watching you be happy without me.

I want you to love & be loved but it's hard not having you love me & being the one to love you.

I may (jokingly) dream of dating Zachary Levi, Paul Walker & Ryan Reynolds but that doesn't mean I don't wish at times that I was still dating you.

It's amazing I actually miss the annoying voices of all the fishing guys on the fishing shows you watched when I wasn't actively watching TV with you.

I miss your voice & the OBNOXIOUS laugh you are so famous for.

I miss the best friend and confidant you became over the past two years.

Knowing we may be are both better off apart, especially in the long run, doesn't make it any easier.  Especially, not when it is the most common standard condolence saying I hear.